When I Knew
I thought this would be the happiest day of my life
Standing in forever
At the wedding isle
With you as my bride
He came with your family from the countryside
No vows could disguise
A love that never died
Guess you chose him that night
Turbulent ride home
Where you tried to kiss me
Under a honey moon
But when I turned away
I knew
Wooden Rings
When I was a boy
I dreamed of a love
Who’d rather juniper to diamond
So I reached for your hand
And gathered the wood
From a fallen tree the storms took
Held out my heart by the root
And I feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
And I feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Oh feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
Well worn and engraved
Familiar but strange
The rings we wore everyday
As is all spread around along shallow ground
Sure changed when the ground froze over
Your skin shone with their oils and fresh poison
Come home and tell me all about it
I’m abuse when you’re excited
Surging through this starving mind like a fever
Oh feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
And I feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Oh feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
Feel it wash
Feel it wash
How could I get along without a fight?
Tooth and nail, the threat of jail for the night
Could have speared our baby girls such a sight
If there’s one thing I regret…
Oh feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
And I feel it wash over me
Falling falling violently
Oh feel it wash over me
Falling calling tears from me
Oh
Oh
Feel it wash
Feel it wash
Finding Me
I wish I could say it was all a lie
working side by side in this house
where we made our home
I wish I knew from the start
that no earthly point of view
could house a wandering star
Wish all that talking could save us
but I couldn’t say the word I knew
would mean loosing you
If loosing you meant finding me tonight
I have to choose before first light
If loosing you meant finding me tonight
I have to choose before first light
Values
I won’t beg anymore
Eye to eye or the door
It’s safe to say I was yours
But I’m here to say
I need more
I just was not raised that way
I want only you
With them I did not feel this way
I want only you
I know I made mistakes and strayed
I want only you
With them, I went against myself
I want only you
I tried to ignore the fire inside (living in silence)
While you did for you
My love’s simple design (isn’t defiant)
But it changes you
I just was not raised that way
I want only you
With them I did not feel this way
I want only you
I know I made mistakes and strayed
I want only you
With them, I went against myself
I want only you
Oh
You drove my crazy girl
Peeled by my self-esteem
Exposed my shame
You’re viral to my thoughts
Like poison to my heart
Took everything I had
To manage the pain
I just was not raised that way
I want only you
With them I did not feel this way
I want only you
I know I made mistakes and strayed
I want only you
With them, I went against myself
I want only you
To Let You Go
Alone in my room with the moon
Crashing through my eyes at my window
I draw your skin tightly in a memory against me
As you wander my dreams
How was I supposed to value you a little bit less than
I did though we we unfaithful
The rasp of your voice is warm in my ear still
It feels like wood grain under my palm
I cast a shadow on my life
Standing in your light
Standing in your light
I just didn’t realize I gave so much
To love, to us
We laughed in parallel all night long
We danced in parallel until the dawn
Made love in parallel under the snow
Tears come in parallel to let you go
I tried to drink you away tonight
But in the isle I see your face
How could I escape a tender light
With the knowledge of the love we made?
How was I supposed to value you a little bit less than
I did, I was in love
The rasp of you voice is warm in my ear still
Resounds like thunder above
How was I supposed to value you a little bit less than
I did though we we unfaithful
The rasp of you voice is warm in my ear still
It feels like wood grain under my palm
We laughed in parallel all night long
We danced in parallel until the dawn
Made love in parallel under the snow
Tears come in parallel to let you go
To let you go
To let you go
Your Season
Christmas light bathe my empty house
Black and white moments framed in time
Silver smiles packed just out of sight
I know it was your season
And that must be the reason
I pulled these pictures out
Silver smiles packed just out of sight
Black and white moments framed in time
Christmas light bathe my empty house
I know it was your season
And that must be the reason I pulled these pictures out
All the same, I’m hanging out memories up
For today, I’m hanging out memories up
All the same, I’m hanging out memories up
For today, I’m hanging out memories up
Oh
The Crash
I glide through the night air
I drive but exhaustion tows my mind
From stripe to white stripe, consumed,
and quickly left behind
Swept up in slow motion
a thundershower of glass
To deploy my body
would free me from my lack
Where am I going?
Not home.
How am I traveling?
Alone.
What if I had just let go?
What if I had just let go?
I would have lost the one…
I’d hoped to know
The Long Way
Have you ever gone the long way
Just to see if you can?
Long walks through wood on Sundays
Hand in hand
Had goals and strived to be
Before you met me
Why I put it all on hold I don’t know
When I met your family
Honor consumed me
And it made it feel alright to let
Now since the break up I am wielding a broken heart
Have time to measure what is left when we’re apart
Learning to truly be alright on my own
With every song I write I hear how I have grown
Have you ever gone the long way
Just to see if you can?
The lessons of life and loving
Bring life again
With my daughter by my side
I will continue to strive
I’m making it alright
Oh
Bated Breath
Summer sun set a hurried poem
To feed the beasts of night
Heart, flesh, and tone
Beasts lay burdens along my ear
Breath liberate them all
To travel downwind
Carry them far from hear
So I can love without fear
I found happiness again
Though I say it with bated breath
